After a ton of thinking (and pining over my inactive WoW subscription) I decided to reactivate it. Although money is still scarce and the job hunt still depressingly unfruitful, the kindness of friends and even some strangers recently has gotten me to realize some things about the way I've been living my life. This last year in particular, I've come down on myself way too hard about unemployment, weight gain, and a slough of other things so much so that I stopped doing the things that I love because I began to see them as a waste of time since they weren't making me any money or getting me back in shape. The lack of games, singing, and generally fun things I used to enjoy has just plunged myself deeper into depression, away from the people that I love, and further away from all my life goals.
I'm not sure if I have what it takes right now to be a full-time live-streamer or YouTube content creator and make a living off of gaming, but I am partnered on Twitch and YouTube. The prospect of making a few dollars while playing WoW is better than no WoW and no income at all, right? *sigh* We'll see how this goes. My self confidence has plummeted even more than I ever thought it could over this past year in general (with randomly few and far between spurts of positivity), but I really do believe that I am on my way to recovering now.
As a tiny step forward, I took some time to redesign the header on this blog and I am a lot happier with it. (The header graphic is no longer static, and the old advertisement-looking slider has become the new header) :3 Hopefully, just looking at it will remind me of what I used to love about why I got involved in the WoW community to begin with.